Luck was on my side last Friday and I DID finish the bear I call Harold. I really like this photo of us. I wanted to show the scale of the painting so that his magnitude could be felt. Three feet by three feet is not that big (by my standards anymore), but Harold fills it like a boss. What you can't see in the sort-of blurry photo is that Harold is a little beat up. He's an old bear and he's tired. He's snuggled into the rocks of the Hudson Bay like only a polar bear can. He's peaceful. And weathered.
I started this painting in October just before I went to Churchill. I left it for a long time and when I picked up again - it took me in a completely different direction. And it didn't come easy. Maybe that's why I like him so much. He was a hard-fought battle. He's also got a soft spot in my heart because a week ago when I named him Harold and put him back on my easel - I got an email from a real person named Harold. Harold had seen the Wild Obsession show on Animal Planet and wanted to reach out to me. And Harold was the zoo keeper for Debbie the old polar bear that had passed away at our zoo. THE Debbie. The one that stole my heart and started my fascination with polar bears. The real Harold did not disappoint.. He's a fantasticly weathered old guy with big, peaceful heart.
The Universe does its thing so well.
**TO SELL OR NOT TO SELL. This is a debate that rages on in our home. And by rages I mean there are certain pieces that I'm simply not ready to part with. And those are the ones that people generally want. Sometimes I just need a couple of months to feel ready to sell. And sometimes I am never ready. I am an emotional painter... I do not deny it. In Dan's opinion everything MUST GO! The faster the better. I get that. I have bills to pay and if I want to buy canvas and paint - I need to sell things. But, I have sold things hastily in the past and still feel the pain of regret. I don't always want to sell things...
Today: Harold has a potential buyer who is coming to visit him... and I am having a hard time with it. And so we will see how the day pans out.